Boyd was supposed to be a barn cat, or at least and indoor/outdoor cat. That was my plan. Life had other ideas.
I had stopped by the veterinarian's that day, over 15 years ago, probably to pick up some medication for a horse or my dog. On the counter was a poster of a large grey tabby. Suddenly I teared up. "Neffy has been gone for six months," I explained. The staff all knew my beloved old tortoiseshell cat. She had been our working barn cat, as well as my evening lap companion for over 14 years, but her health had been failing when she disappeared. Neffy was independent, opinionated, and a superb hunter of rodents in the barn. She was also my buddy. I missed her. Her absence left a hole in my being.
The receptionist glanced at the photo. "He's looking for a home. We put him in a local rescue last night. He was an outdoor cat, and the family brought him in with his sick sister to be put down. We kept him because there is nothing wrong with him except he needed his shots, and to be treated for fleas. We did all that. He's only a couple of years old. He's pretty big. Oh, and he's a Manx." Then she explained when she saw my slightly puzzled expression, "He doesn't have a tail - only the tiniest stub."
Something felt right about this cat. "I'll take him," I said impulsively, but firmly.
We made arrangements for me to come back in a few hours with a cat carrier. Over the lunch period, the staff would transport him to their office from the rescue home.
I walked in, and the receptionist put a bewildered big tabby in my arms. He allowed me to stroke him as he nervously shed hair all over my clothes. "What's his name?"
His last owners didn't give him one. They called him "boy."
When I brought the cat home, it was my husband, Steve, who decided we wouldn't confuse the new pet by radically changing his non-name. We would call him Boyd. He answered to it immediately in a shy, confused way.
As I have down with most of my new cats and kittens, I left him in the bathroom for a few days, with a litter box, and I brought him out in the evenings to sit with me as we watched TV. He quickly adjusted to the routine in a tentative, timid manner. Boyd never ventured far from my side. I soon released him from the confines of the bathroom, and his litter box took its place in the laundry room with Boyd enjoying the run of the house. He even got along with Snickerdoodle, the dog.
There were a couple of mishaps. He had accidents with bowel movements, and the vet explained that was not uncommon for Manx cats. A careful diet took care of the problem most of the time. Boyd also thought he could scratch his claws on Steve's recliner. He accepted that as a no-no when I dusted the two cat trees with catnip. At one point he believed he might stalk my pet budgies, but when the plexiglass side fell on him, he decided they didn't really exist, and he ignored the flight cage.
So, living in the house was going well for Boyd.
It was the outside that bothered him Boyd wasn't bold like Neffy. He always moved cautiously, especially when he was beyond the walls of the house. I would bring him out with me, and he would sit by the door or slink under bushes. I tried to explain to him that living on a horse farm meant he had a job. Boyd was never convinced.
Eventually, he did manage to establish himself as a hunter in the barn, but I learned to leave my bedroom window open. The leap to the sill was about four feet. He made it every night, returning to the house in the wee hour of the morning.
It might have gone like that for more years, except construction began by us. What had been a dairy farm with one old home, became a development with no cows and 65 new homes. Our dead end street became a thoroughfare.
Boyd had no traffic sense. I watched him amble across the road, oblivious to the cars, and I decided I didn't need an outdoor cat. The neighbors had cats. They could maintain the rodent population in my barn. Besides, I had always worried about the bird population. Boyd could live in the house.
He didn't seem to mind at all. In fact, I think he was relieved. Sometimes he sat on the bedroom window sill and gazed outside, but usually he was content to laze around the house. He played with his toys, especially his purple ball that I had crocheted for him.
Years passed, with Boyd my constant inside companion. He would press against my thigh, or stretch his upper body across my lap because he was too big to lay his whole body on me. He seemed to enjoy the company of Snickerdoodle, too.
If I left for any length of time he was stressed. I could tell. He would shed. Boyd, in many respects, was more like a dog than a cat. He didn't pretend to be independent. He always wanted to be near me. He had beds in every room of the house, some of them meant for the dog.
As he aged, Boyd put on more weight, and he got diabetes. I had to learn to adjust his diet, and to give him shots. He was an ideal patient, and he even lost enough weight that I didn't have to continue poking him. He enjoyed his wet, fish Friskies.
The vet warned me Boyd's kidneys were failing him. I was cleaning his litter box often, at least twice daily, but he never had an accident.
Then he wasn't interested in his food, or his toys, although he drank a lot of water. He hardly lifted his head as I stroked him. We all knew our time together was ending.
My beloved daughter-in-law is a veterinarian's technician. She was with me as I held Boyd to cross the rainbow bridge.
For years my little dog looked for his friend, quietly wandering from room to room, inspecting all of Boyd's resting places.
I often dream of Boyd. He haunts me. My journal is full of stories about him, and I don't have a cat any longer. Perfection can't be replaced.
Somewhere in my house is a purple crochet ball. Boyd hid it before he left, and I have never found it. I wonder....

